It’s been an emotional week on my end. I will admit I’ve spent as much time tracking my YouTube subscribers as breathing. At 10,000 subs, I reached milestones I never even dreamed of. And I felt just absolute terror.
It really doesn’t make sense. I’ve seen Instagram photos of people with balloons of 1K, 50K, 1M. Smiling, excited, overjoyed. Celebrating. So why is it that all I felt was fear?
We are told that our comfort zone will kill us. That we should aim for more. That happiness and meaning comes after working hard and achieving things.
Well, I found that the discomfort zone of ‘achievement’ is just as painful. When you first get there, it’s just imposter syndrome. You want to cry (which I did), quit and leave. Just as much as you did when you were in your comfort zone before starting.
But this is so liberating. It’s terrible either way: not doing anything, or going for what you’re scared of. So you might as well try. Life will always suck one way or another. But it’s worth some small highs.
And once you get used to that new place of discomfort, it starts becoming less so. We’re hardwired to be weary and scared of somewhere new. But once they become familiar, perhaps we can say ‘Hey, this isn’t a big deal.’ And we keep moving forward.
I anticipate the next milestones on this online journey will be less shocking. Maybe you’ll even see me smile with a cake one day.
So what are you holding back from, what is the dream discomfort zone you’re avoiding?
Wishing you a wonderful week,