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What if you die tomorrow?

What if you die tomorrow?
By Elizabeth Filips • Issue #20 • View online
We definitely romanticise dying within 24 hours.
Have a difficult decision to make? Well, what would you do if you were dying tomorrow?
Think you’re not on the right path in life? Let me tell you what people’s biggest regrets are on their deathbeds to help you life your life.
And although I’ve actually used the confidence this “I’m dying tomorrow” mentality has given me quite a few times myself, I actually now think it’s not that great.
Why do we trust people on their deathbed? They’re not really that turstoworthy. They have nothing to lose. They have no further concept of a future and are seeing the past with rose-tinted glasses. Do we think if they managed to live for another 20 years they’d be hugging their kids every day and never raising their voice or caring about what others think? All because of this moment of regret?
Probably not.
So why do we take their advice, and is there a better way? For the first time I started wondering how I would approach life if I could rather live forever.
Not sure if I want to stay in medical school? Well, what’s the rush? Take a pause now, return to it in a few decades when it feels right.
Someone doesn’t like me? Well it doesn’t really matter at all. They’re probably going to end up hating and loving me again throughout the centuries anyway. What’s the rush, it’ll be fine in the end.
Don’t know what to do? Do what feels right in the moment, without damaging my future prospects, without rush or anxiety, because everything will be fine at some point.
It feels so terrifying to let go of things in the name of something which is absolutely impossible (living forever), but I honestly feel like, at least for me, it rids of me a lot of anxieties. Everything seems so much more temporary, unique, fleeting, valuable and peaceful. As though I want to appreciate the moment more. Not in the fumbling, anxiety-driven rush of losing it all, but in a loving, relaxed, curious way.
I wonder if this craziness makes sense to anyone else.
Best wishes,

🪄 Quote of the week
“Death is every man’s privilege.“ 
— Time enough for love - Heinlein Robert
🖤 My Favourite Things This Week
Podcast! - It’s happening. I’m starting a podcast (soon-ish). She’s going to be called “Feelosophy” - where I’ll be trying to talk about why we feel the way we do, hopefully while painting if I can set it up properly. I’ll also hopefully have some guests on (already have Jack Edwards and Nasir Kharma lined up). I’m so excited! If you haven’t seen the logo - I put a vote up on my channel, would appreciate some feedback!
🐓 Not-so-great this week
Moving house - This is no fun. I’m still not fully packed for the move, although the microphones are packed, so I couldn’t record this newsletter. I cannot wait to be done and moved! Hopefully before the next newsletter!
This gap year - I’m still not fully sure what to do with this gap year. I’m so grateful I took some time off medicine - a decision I feel better for every passing day, but I’m still not sure how to make it fully worth it. It feels hard to think straight surrounded by boxes and in the middle of a major change, but I’m hoping to get some clarity/peace soon!
🎥 YouTube Videos this week
Stop waking up early.
Stop waking up early.
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Elizabeth Filips

Heya, I'm Elizabeth, a medical student and painter in London. Some Sundays I write about exploring meaning, productivity, little pleasures and just navigating life. And some of my favourite things that week.

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